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I just feel really sad. Not like, hysterically so, just melancholy.
And I want to tear up my thighs with a razor.
Nobody's ever going to look at me and assume I am anything other than a girl, I don't look studly
I have a round stub nose, long hair that'd look like shit if I cut it probably, round eyes, round face, a small mouth,
So what does it matter what I do with my body, then?
But I don't want to make my mother cry again
Plus a family member is coming over soon. This isn't the right time to do it, but later it won't matter. It's now or never, I really want the destruction, the sensation, but I don't want the drama.
It'd be so easy to just go grab one and start going at it, thoughtlessly
I don't know what are some ways to stop the urge. Or of a "substitute" that won't freak the family out.
What are some ways to like, not?
And I want to tear up my thighs with a razor.
Nobody's ever going to look at me and assume I am anything other than a girl, I don't look studly
I have a round stub nose, long hair that'd look like shit if I cut it probably, round eyes, round face, a small mouth,
So what does it matter what I do with my body, then?
But I don't want to make my mother cry again
Plus a family member is coming over soon. This isn't the right time to do it, but later it won't matter. It's now or never, I really want the destruction, the sensation, but I don't want the drama.
It'd be so easy to just go grab one and start going at it, thoughtlessly
I don't know what are some ways to stop the urge. Or of a "substitute" that won't freak the family out.
What are some ways to like, not?
I'd like this either closed or dedicated as a **GENERAL "Tips for Not Self Harming When You Want to In the Moment" thread, not about me.
I'm glad you worked through that Voltaire. You are a smart girl and I see you making progress all the time.
I hope the sadness passes for you soon. Try to remember, the bad thoughts WILL pass. We just have to hang on until then.
Love.
It's just a real pain in the ass for someone who's already depressed, lol.
Lilly and Irish, I've become quite good friends with you two in particular over the years, and I'm so glad we're friends.~ Stay strong, Irish, you're doing great.
MaryBeth- Thank you. I might give it a whirl at some point.
Tommy- I apologize for sounding cold towards you. I'm bad with showing gratefulness and emotion at all when I'm in that kind of mindset.
Old- If getting very few responses bothered me, I'd have left here my first week, lol. I think I'm notorious for that around here because I'm verbose and also a pain in the ass. Take me as I come.
Also the other boards are slow as hellllll and SI (self-injury) is common with bipolar disorder and similar conditions, so while I introduced it with a crisis-y tone, I asked for the "Let's just talk about coping mechanisms as a whole" conversion of my thread because I thought someone else could commandeer this whole operation after I no longer needed immediate intervention, and that it might could help out some other person.
I dunno. I guess that's why I said that, anyways. I'm not ever really sure why my alters say the things that they do.