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Today was my husbands payday. Usually we save most of our bill money for the casinos. ( trying to make more money on it). Well, today, after we paid all the bills we were supposed to pay, I ended up...

Reasons I want to gamble:1. My BFF of 37 years is battling lung cancer and isnt doi g good at all. She has always been my go to person with everything. Now shes barely there.2. My step son is in end...

I havent gambled in over a week but one thing I've become since i quit is a liar. I have to keep lying to cover the fact that i lost things to gambling. My mom asked if we still had our 2nd car (that...

I havent gambled for 5 days. I havent had any money since then. I deserve a better life than this one. It SUCKS to struggle constantly. It sucks to be a gambler. I am borrowing money from Mom so i...

.  Guess i dont want a normal life anymore.  I keep myself beat down and struggling to pay bills much less have money to live on. I feel like this addiction keeps pulling me down i to the dark...

i havent been here in a long time. My life has become so unmanageable that i cant take it anymore. Im at rock bottom now. Ive lost my car, my stuff is all i  pawn. My electric is going to be shut...

Yesterday I fought back the urges to slip away and go play my slots. I argued with my addiction all day. I pictured myself walking into the casino HELL and getting my momentary fix. Then i pictured...

Hello. I have not gambled for 79 days today! Sometimes it seems like forever and some days it feels like yesterday.I used to love to crappie fish, especially during the spawn. When I gambled, I lost...

These last few days I've been wondering what to do. Im used to living and breathing gambling. Now that i dont do that anymore trying to figure out how to live without it. My husband and i stayed busy...

I thought I'd write today about how much better my life has been since not gambling. My self worth is back. My stress level is WAY lower. I have money saved and in my purse. If i need something i can...

Today I am celebrating my 30 days of not going to the casino. Its kind of odd that its almost my monthly payday and there's still money left!! Those days of desperation(selling, scraping, borrowing,...

Here I am again. I haven't been here since Sept of last year. I just got sick and tired of being sick and tired. It took me awhile to decide  im tired of living like I have been. My new tv was in...

Here i am again. I made it 7 days so far, but i havent had any money either.This demon has taken me down so far again, I cant wait to get money just so I can pay my bills I've let go. Im hoping I can...

Today I will not gamble. Today instead of gambling, I will quietly listen to all the things that my God has allowed me to see, touch, hear and smell. I woke up this morning to hear the birds singing....

Here I am once again. Day 4 this time. I am so determined to not do this again. This constant HELL that my life has become. I absolutely believe that I deserve better and that there's better days...