Stupid Damn Urges
Yesterday I fought back the urges to slip away and go play my slots. I argued with my addiction all day. I pictured myself walking into the casino HELL and getting my momentary fix. Then i pictured myself losing all my money and not getting through the month much less not getting to see my son and new grandbaby in Denver in 4 weeks.
I hate that i even want to go back after all its done to me! Im sure the urges will never completely go away. I have made it over 3 months this time yesterday i realized the urge can strike at any time and they can be STRONG. I told my BFF who isnt a gambler that i wanted to go and she prayed with me and that helped too. I know i have to STFAFTC. Period!!
One spin is too many and a million isnt near enough for me!!
Love,
Lisa
I hate that i even want to go back after all its done to me! Im sure the urges will never completely go away. I have made it over 3 months this time yesterday i realized the urge can strike at any time and they can be STRONG. I told my BFF who isnt a gambler that i wanted to go and she prayed with me and that helped too. I know i have to STFAFTC. Period!!
One spin is too many and a million isnt near enough for me!!
Love,
Lisa
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