Trying to find myself
These last few days I've been wondering what to do. Im used to living and breathing gambling. Now that i dont do that anymore trying to figure out how to live without it. My husband and i stayed busy running most of the weekend. We went to alot of thrift stores. Today we went to the lake. I just feel like somethings off somehow. I will not gamble though. I'm just trying to find my way i guess. Hugs Lisa
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You will find your way, actually, you already are! I am sooooo proud of you, for coming back, and sticking with it, when I read your initial post this last time, I knew it in my heart, that you were done. Keep going, and enjoy this time.
Hi Lisa, I know it\'s super tough. We get so tuned in to getting our mind turned off! All we want is that adrenaline rush of a win, or even a near win. I don\'t know about you, but when I used to hit the slots I never played any that didn\'t have any sound. I wanted all my senses filled up! I loved the flashing lights and the bells and whistles. The thing is, you know that it so fills our mind, we lose our souls. I know how horrible I would feel and that more than anything stops me from going back. I decided from the beginning that I needed to put as much time into my recovery as I put toward my gambling. When I am tired and I don\'t want to go to a meeting, I ask myself -If I were still gambling would I have gone to the casino when I was this tired? You bet your boots I would have! So, off I go to my GA meeting!
Keep putting days together and always come here, when you are at loose ends. Love and hugs, always, ~Estel