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- so i went out tonight..with real live people and you know what? it really sucked. the occasion was to celebrate a departing family friend, he's going to the marines. well, he's actually really my aunts friedn he's just always around the family and...
- is it wrong to already have my escape route set? i mean out of all the B.S i've spoken in my life i really think i got something going with this. i'm preparing myself for the worse and when December hits and all things aren't going "good" than i...
- I can't move on..I can't move on to my future because i belong to the present i was born and raised in the past, all i know is "how it used to be" not "how it could be". That's why I can't look forward i'm still looking back at the past asking...
- it's that monkey on my back again. he's always here. so, i'm paying for my books at school and i just can't help but feel so bad. my parents are waisting so much money on me, i just feel like there is soo much i could do to help them out. Get a job,...
- hey anybody out there, i'm feeling kind of down right now and i would really like to talk to anybody on here whose willing to. we could talk about anything i just want some social interaction right now..it's pretty lonely out here
- I want to talk to my ex so bad tonight, is that normal? It's been like 5 months 7 months since we broke up. She's never hit me up, I've always hit her up and then she'll just stop talking to me after a while :-/ I don't know.. I feel like such a...
- i asked her if i should call her my girlfriend and she said "isn't it a litle too early to call me that" then i asked her if she was talking to anybody else besides me and she said "i don't have anybody else to talk to, i don't have much friends"....
- suicide is such a hard word, i don't want to commit suicide i just want to die. i don't want people to come to my funeral saying it's all my fault, that i was just a weak person, that i'm going to hell. Honestly fuck them i hate all those people who...
- so i got into an argument with my older brother which led to a physical altercation..needless to say he won that one. fucking asshole, but i'm not even mad at him, i'm more made at myself for being so weak. Even tho everybody was angrier at him i...
- i feel like everybody is moving forward and i'm not, they're light years ahead of me and i just can't compete with those bastards....i'm letting abuelita, Damaris, mommy, daddy, and worse of all Anays down cause she's growing up to be just like me....
- i think my purpose in life is to be perfect, to be a perfect distraction or a perfect portrait of what it's like to be a disappointment in this world. So that they can try and be different, i'm a loser and that's it....no ifs ands or maybes about...
- i want to be optimistic, i think i can too. with the right amount of divine intervention i can be proud, but with luck i can be worry free. why should i care so much that she doesn't care about me don't i have God on my side? i don't know, but it's...
- to bad that i can't be the man that everybody needs me to be. i'm going to be in this place for so long it's unreal. and irrational thought? maybe, but as of right now it's true. it was my b'day on sunday and i couldn't really appreciate it atleast...
- "Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fightWhy am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sightWhy am I trying to give, when no one gives me a tryWhy am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die"......how come death is such an...
- so i went to the car show at the jacob javits center today, it was really interesting and i enjoyed looking at the cars. i also liked the fact that i was able to get out the house for a bit. But(isn't there always a but?), all i could think off was...