Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
"Why am I fighting to live, if I'm just living to fight
Why am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sight
Why am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try
Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die"......how come death is such an attractive solution? all i see is misery in my house, it's as if god saved all the pain in the world and just gave it to certain people, freaking jerk. but seriously, is death really that bad, why can't i seriously think about committing suicide without sending warning flags..maybe people could help me out, so that i could do it effectively...my aunt is doing really bad, and so is my grandmother and all i can do is just watch them. these two people raised me and i love them with every fiber in my being. so it hurts soo much to see them like this, then ontop of that i got my own issues to deal with..and all of this is just building up on my head and i wanna say it's slowing me down. i wake up every morning just hoping i can close my eyes and go back to sleep, but i get up and go thru my routines but it's the same sh*t every single day. and i'm just beginning to feel hopeless and i even went to a therapist but even that seems useless now(i'm planning to stop going). i feel like i have no meaning anymore and i've turned invisible over time and nobody notices my atrociously gorgeous face anymore, as if they did before. i'm bymyself a lot! and so are my grandmother and aunt, we're like all the same people and if i loose them i'll loose me i'll loose my heart, i'll loose my mind and i hope that never happens..i'd rather go first then have to deal with them going. i've prayed, and i've gone to church but it just seems like there's no God, and if i dnt have anybody up there who cares for me and i dont have anybody down here that cares for me, just what the f*ck do i have?
Why am I trying to see, when there ain't nothing in sight
Why am I trying to give, when no one gives me a try
Why am I dying to live, if I'm just living to die"......how come death is such an attractive solution? all i see is misery in my house, it's as if god saved all the pain in the world and just gave it to certain people, freaking jerk. but seriously, is death really that bad, why can't i seriously think about committing suicide without sending warning flags..maybe people could help me out, so that i could do it effectively...my aunt is doing really bad, and so is my grandmother and all i can do is just watch them. these two people raised me and i love them with every fiber in my being. so it hurts soo much to see them like this, then ontop of that i got my own issues to deal with..and all of this is just building up on my head and i wanna say it's slowing me down. i wake up every morning just hoping i can close my eyes and go back to sleep, but i get up and go thru my routines but it's the same sh*t every single day. and i'm just beginning to feel hopeless and i even went to a therapist but even that seems useless now(i'm planning to stop going). i feel like i have no meaning anymore and i've turned invisible over time and nobody notices my atrociously gorgeous face anymore, as if they did before. i'm bymyself a lot! and so are my grandmother and aunt, we're like all the same people and if i loose them i'll loose me i'll loose my heart, i'll loose my mind and i hope that never happens..i'd rather go first then have to deal with them going. i've prayed, and i've gone to church but it just seems like there's no God, and if i dnt have anybody up there who cares for me and i dont have anybody down here that cares for me, just what the f*ck do i have?
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i've been where you are, you have every day to do your best to find something to be happy about, for me there were days that the only thing that mde me happy was seeing the blue sky.
muskrattiger
i dont know if i have it in me to answer one more question tonight but i have already reas your post and there is so much feeling here so much .................i have been here more than once in my life ...............keep on fighting is all i can say ............there is things worth seeing just look into a childs eyes and see the worle through there eyes ...................your words are so full of pain .........that needs to come out .............and so does what ever is behind that pain...........everything has to come out if we want to get better ......................it is very hard on us when our loved ones are not doing well i lost my mother and mother inlaw last year .................i am very sorry to here about your grandmother and your aunt.....i will keep them in my prayers ..........................if you louse them they will not be far away and you will feel like you are missing a pice of your heart so you have to fill it with all the good memories you can think of ........................you have us ........................and one day you will feel better you maby cant see it now but it will happen if you just hang on ..........................i am here for you .....................you have expresed your self very well so much emotion .......................please take care .....god bless
a141994
thankyou kelly007 for relting to me, it's good to see i wasn't alone in feeling this way. and thankyou muskrattiger as well, i do have a lot of pain and i fear everyday of loosing them. i do hope those better days come soon..for you and me both
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