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- I don't know how i let nothing take up so much of my time. Literally nothing! i come home and just completely disregard any school related work that i have to do, just completely cast it away from my mind. and to do what? nothing! absolutely...
- so i failed my second math test, which means i failed for the semester which means my gpa is gonna go way the hell down, which means my parents are gonna be dissapointed in me. i don't anymore, i just don't want to live my life to work, or live my...
- so after class today i called my dad and told him i'm quitting my job, he asked "but don't you want the experience" i told him that i don't care anymore..he got mad at me and asked me if i was atleast gonna find another job. i told him that i go to...
- let me start off by saying that i just hate myself, all of me, the way i am, the way i was, my actions, my feelings, my thoughts, my responses...just everything. i get so easily frustrated about everything,bu i have a very quiet personality so...
- so i just got back from an appointment with the career center at my school. needless to say, i am so far from where i should be at this point. I'm a 20 yr old undecided sophmore in college with zero work experience, except for a few volountary works...
- i'm just not happy with myself. wih the way i've acted these last couple months, the way i've handled stress, dissapointmets, school, my family, etc. ...i'm truly ashamed of myself, and i can't blame anybody but me for where i am. i feel like i want...
- afer 5 years it's not a fucking mental breakdown anymore, i'm just fucking crazy. and i've been crazy and i'll always be crazy and i know it, and i can make ammends with it at night, right before i go to sleep, but in the day?? c'mon man, how do i...
- it's my old friend suicide he talks the loudest when i'm by myself. she whispers in my ear, she's seductive i think i just wanna keep her here with me to keep me company. i don't want to die i keep telling you but you don't seem to hear me. you just...
- "i just feel like hitting somebody, i feel like they all think i'm a joke, like my life is a joke and i'm the most well known clown around. they don't pay me any mind whatsoever and i feel neglected"...umm, that's just my irrational mind at play but...
- i'm just siting in my room, with my head in my hands, i feel like the world is trying to break me. i'm physically trying to stop the thoughts in my head by adding pressure to my head. i don't want to thik these thoughts...i really don't and it's soo...
- i'm emotionally compromised. i have no real life experiences to share with you. that just makes me a miserable person point bkank. is it okay to not have any experience wha so ever at 19?
- "depression, depression, oh beautiful depression i thought you would stop by for a week or two to teach me a lesson. but you didn't and it's been a year dude! are you finally through? you occupy so much of..me! that i should start billing you when...
- i think i may be depressed. i'm seeing both my grandmother and aunt fading away before me, their entire life has been full of pain and now when they're at an age when it should be winding down it seems to turn up a notch. I love them soo much, and...
- i'm a man but i know fear, it rules supreme over me. i don't want this life, but i'm afraid to give it up..i'm to deep in it to quit now, but i want out..i want out so bad, i feel like i messed it up so bad that it can't be repaired. i'm 20!! and i...
- so there's this girl i'vebeen courting from my school for about a week plus now, and today she dropped some news on me! okay so to sum it up this is what she said 1. she had a one night stand with a dude, not only that but it happened less than a...