Sweetheart,
Your Life is NOT A Joke. It's Extremely Precious.

I'm So Sorry that You Are Hurting Right Now.
You Are Not Alone.

(((((HUGS)))))

Hey that's how I feel. Well in place of hitting someone, I guess I feel like only hitting myself.

People usually don't pay me much attention or when they do it's neggative attention. I've learned that usually those people have issues..

Try this; if you have ANYBODY around you that is toxic or that can't find it in them to be uplifting, tell them about it. If they laugh and/or ridicule or shun you, you've just done yourself a favor by figuring out who was truly going to be there for you. Being friendless and having a whole bunch of people around you that don't care about you is one in the same. I spent years being best friends with someone who ridiculed me, laughed at me, took me for granted etc. I wish that I had those years back.

I admire that you sought solace through human interaction.. A lot of times drugs, alcohol etc get plugged in. Daily Strength has been a refuge for me. I was basically alone. Now, even though I still struggle with my emotions, I now that there are ppl here for me
and ppl that have gone through what I am going through.

Take heart sweetie, you are not a joke. Those that think you are are the punchline. Keep searching, a true friend indeed is to be found. Stay in touch!

I was feeling like this this morning and will get there again i'm sure. People like us need to rest a little more and make sure we are eating right. Treat yourself right today, do something cozy cause these feelings and thoughts are totally exhausting eh. Your life is a success cause you re still living it, even with your mind playing tricks on you. And cause you know exactly what its like I bet you see it in others too, and your success will come from helping them too. When it feels no ones got your back, come on here and post something that helps someone else. Something about doing that helps you regain control of thosebad thoughts that get stuck in our minds. You got this!

You need to get away from them - all of them.

Find something you want to do. You're too good for what you're enduring.

Take care of yourself, one little change at a time, until you feel better
about your life, and really, to HELL with them. You don't need them.

Please don't hit anybody.

One thing I know you and your life is not a joke no ones life is a joke .....the deep depression you are feeling is making you feel this ....you need to look after the depression but it is good that you are talking and expressing how you feel because even that has to come out ......we all need human interaction and you can find that in here ....you can make some friends or just talk right here ....take care of your self and learn to be good to your self you deserve it ......god bless

enaj187 has a good point. Depression can be contagious and tends to push people away but I found that helping others on this site and getting positive feedback really helped me. I would say I'm 90% better now as a consequence. You could perhaps arrange to chat with someone on Yahoo Messenger sometime.