Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
i think i may be depressed. i'm seeing both my grandmother and aunt fading away before me, their entire life has been full of pain and now when they're at an age when it should be winding down it seems to turn up a notch. I love them soo much, and that's why it hurts me to see them like this, i just want to help them so that they don't suffer anymore after all it is my fault. If they didn't have to take care of me for so long maybe they could have caught a break but no i'm just a selfish, lazy asshole. Do you know i'm 19 and have never had a job before? gosh, i swear that my life has resulted in a failure,
I'm trying to do good tho, like i've applied for a job, granted i don't know how to fill out the application so i'm probablly just gonna get embarasssed when the interview comes around, but it's a step none the less right? i've also started an application to transfer to baruch college! i'm just not sure how to do it?? like i know that sounds dumb but i've never transfered schools before and it's not like i'm getting much help in doing it. Ahhh, excuses excuses that's all i know how to give, i'm just worried that all i've done in school up to this point has been for nothing.
My mind races a million miles per second everytime i try to sleep it off but maybe that's for the best right? i don't have the luxury of sleep anymore i must go go go! if i'm ever going to...
oh this world was just not meant for me...
I'm trying to do good tho, like i've applied for a job, granted i don't know how to fill out the application so i'm probablly just gonna get embarasssed when the interview comes around, but it's a step none the less right? i've also started an application to transfer to baruch college! i'm just not sure how to do it?? like i know that sounds dumb but i've never transfered schools before and it's not like i'm getting much help in doing it. Ahhh, excuses excuses that's all i know how to give, i'm just worried that all i've done in school up to this point has been for nothing.
My mind races a million miles per second everytime i try to sleep it off but maybe that's for the best right? i don't have the luxury of sleep anymore i must go go go! if i'm ever going to...
oh this world was just not meant for me...
For me, it was a whole bunch of circumstances adding up to one big nightmare, that finally got me to go see a doctor, once and for all.
Your sadness at seeing your beloved older relatives start to decline is heartening. It means you are not made of stone. It would hurt anyone with any feelings at all to see this happen.
When ordinary life events become profoundly difficult, and overwhelming, it's time to get yourself to a doctor. Like World said, a sleep aid might help, and step-by-step, you can get large parts of normal function back.....if you work hard at it, and take it one day at a time.
You've got to take care of yourself before you can be a real help to the others who need you.
(((hug))) for you
If you really feel overwhelmed, make a list. They aren't just for
females. They help you get organized, figure out what's most important, plus, you get to mark things off as you move down the list.
I don't think there's an easier way to get in serious trouble, mentally, than to not sleep at least 6 or 7 hours a night. It's not optional. People who brag that they're fine on a few hours of sleep a night - most of them are wrong.
I'm sure your grandmother and aunt think you're the greatest.
If they are in physical pain, make sure someone gets them in
to see the doctor.
What you've learned in school, in life, is never for nothing.
Being 19 and haven't yet had a job - not a big deal. You may roll your eyes,because this saying is trite, but totally true -- you have your whole life ahead of you!