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i'm fucking insane

a141994
a141994
afer 5 years it's not a fucking mental breakdown anymore, i'm just fucking crazy. and i've been crazy and i'll always be crazy and i know it, and i can make ammends with it at night, right before i go to sleep, but in the day?? c'mon man, how do i manage..how can i manage throughtout an entire day to keep sane!! c;mon alex i couldn't of possibly fucked myself over like this...c'mon alex!! you can't be this screwed up dude, who knew being anti-social for the first fucking 15 years of my life would come back to haunt me..who knew but i wasn't ready back then..i wasn't, i was fat! and when i got older i was too skinny wth man boobs. and my attitude sucks dude, it really does..i dnt even know how to ask for help, you think my family knows i'm depressed? hell no! i think i'm just gonna die like this and that scares me. i'm scared that they'll all realize just how stupid i really am, i'll go unvalidated for ife
looney1
looney1
Sorry to hear things have got so bad for you. There is help out there if you can get a referral to a counsellor. Cognitive Behaviour Therapy may help with your belief system and the way you talk and think about things. You are young and can turn this around. Good luck for the future.
LoveAlice
LoveAlice
I'm fucking insane too. And I fucking hate it. And therapy is not always right for everyone or legit. It made me worse. It fucked me up super bad.
Paigegirl
Paigegirl
Alright, I really believe how you feel. I have been there and I am still there. We all have horrible burdens that we have carried around with us. It sucks! We can't run away from ourselves and we hate it when people say, "Ya, I understand what you are going through" like its so darn easy. But wait a minute, it all begins in our heads.
Therapy is the furthest thing from our minds when we hit rock bottom, right? Hey, I go get in the shower, feel clean, calm down and start thinking, "Who gives a *#$@ about having man boobs or a female with hair falling out of my head and look like an old man?".
That's when I think of myself and not others and what the heck they think! I'll go out and buy me a wig or a scarf. Do one thing at a time. Take a walk after the shower. Walk tall because the next thing you are going to do is get a shirt that looks so good on you no one can tell you have man boobs. I am now married to a man who loves me for who I am. He does not care that I look like a balding old man. Keep coming back here. Careful with the language or we get our butts kicked out of DS and we won't have each other to talk to. Take care, man.
bluedragon41
bluedragon41
..."afer 5 years it's not a fucking mental breakdown anymore, i'm just fucking crazy. and i've been crazy and i'll always be crazy and i know it,"
Yeah, I'm right there with you... :(

I don't think you're stupid though, I think you're fighting a hard fight with very little help.