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Another update...missed yesterday though, did ok.

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I ate fish and chips :(. Guilt guilt guilt!

I'm out of hospital now (General) and been put on loads of medication which in turn has made me put on LOADS of weight. At first I was so depressed that I just didn't care, but now i've been...

Just to let anyone here know. I was taken into a psch ward on Monday so I wont be on for a while. Thanks to everyone who sent me messages.x-Bliss-x

Vodka, Benadryl, Paracetamol and Methadone...Tomorrow I say goodbye to this world and all it's pain and suffering.x-Bliss-x

Well it's been a while since I wrote a poem and I've just finished this one so I thought i'd post it in my journal. Please be aware though it contains the subject of suicide and so may be triggering...

I know i've said this over and over, but I feel like everything is falling apart again. I don't know how to cope anymore and all I can think about is I don't want to be here. It's the only way I can...

Today has been a lovely day. It was David’s birthday and everyone has gone to bed tonight, content and happy with their day. So why have I just spent the past hour crying? Why as I lay down in bed...

I dont really know how to feel right now. This morning I started my period again for the first time since I've been ill. It's been aout 2 years and it's really freaked me out. I just keep thinking -...

Well things with my meal plan are going much better since I started again. I'm doing the same plan I was doing before only I admit I've stuck with the lower calorie meals. It's helping me cope just...

I keep swinging from eating everything I'm supposed to in the day, the six meals a day (ED unit schedule) - to freaking out about it and hardly eating at all. It's really bad and I'm finding it hard...

What have I done!!! I was so depressed and then suddenly I had a sudden lift in my mood which prompted me to confess to my Mum how I'd managed to lose weight again despite me 'having my meals' (I'd...

This is quite hard to write. I've only just recently came out of ip (23rd Dec) and already I want to restrict like hell again. But I'm in total despair at the moment because even though I REALLY want...

For those who know me, have been friends with me and have supported me and followed my journal. I just want to let you know that the decision has been made to re-admit me into the Eating Disorder...