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• Depression
  

  Discussion Comment

  Posted by: TheGreatMarkian

  Posted: 01/23/2020

  TheGreatMarkian commented on the discussion One Step Forward, 10 Steps Back.

• Depression
  

  One Step Forward, 10 Steps Back

  Posted by: TheGreatMarkian

  Last Reply: ML15037 01/25/2020

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  I really am struggling to understand why it's so difficult.I have a good few days - seem to be making progress in myself and keeping my emotions under control. The smallest thing happens...CRASH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!The whole world seems to collapse around me and I'm back to where I was before. If not worse...I'm currently trying to listen to uplifting music and finding it difficult to concentrate on anything. Even typing this post has taken nearly three hours as I keep feeling like...

• Depression
  

  The Shocking Truth

  Posted by: TheGreatMarkian

  Last Reply: APOR2017 01/09/2020

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  If one more person tells me to just 'cheer up' because 'it's not all that bad', I'm going to scream!There are people who try to say they will support you, because they understand what it feels like to go through depression ("I've been sad because of ... before" is always a lovely comment).I'm not 'sad', I'm not 'upset'. I'm just not okay. I literally have got to a point where emotions seem to be a thing of the past. I don't have happy times, I don't have sad times - the reason behind it is...

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  Journal Comment

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  Posted: 12/02/2019

  TheGreatMarkian commented on TheGreatMarkian's journal Day One

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 11/27/2019

  TheGreatMarkian became friends with Tashio2x.

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  Baby Steps

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  Posted: 11/27/2019

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  I find it very difficult to speak in person about my true issues, but I hope that I can explain myself in this journal.From a young age, I was always told to push down on my emotions. My dad, along with other male figureheads in my life, always told me that 'emotions are for girls and for sissies' and therefore I'd be a girl if I let myself show any emotion. To this date, this ethos has stuck in my head and, even now, I try to ignore my true emotions and just put on a brave face while really on...

• Depression
  

  Rock Bottom

  Posted by: TheGreatMarkian

  Last Reply: Bluebird20 11/27/2019

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  I am finding it very difficult to speak in person about my true issues, but I hope that I can explain myself in this letter.From a young age, I was always told to push down on my emotions. My dad, along with other male figureheads in my life, always told me that 'emotions are for girls and for sissies' and therefore I'd be a girl if I let myself show any emotion. To this date, this ethos has stuck in my head and, even now, I try to ignore my true emotions and just put on a brave face while...

• GERD & Heartburn
  

  Suggestions Welcome

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  Last Reply: Lesleygm 03/12/2021

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  Good afternoon,I was diagnosed with GERD over two years ago and life has been a constant struggle ever since.I have days where I am suffering with relentless pain, which then causes me severe difficulties with work and home life. It seems to be that I get somewhere with things and then it comes back with a vendetta to cause me pain.Right now I am on Lanzoprazole to combat the acid, however there must be other options.Does anyone know of any lifestyle choices that could help to alleviate the...

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  New Friend

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  Posted: 11/27/2019

  TheGreatMarkian became friends with TeamDS.