arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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Another memory set I am on the verge of trusting are those of being very nearly a feral child. Fifth of eleven in a highly dysfunctional family... I felt mostly invisible to the world then. Still do....
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In the shadows of your fear bright lightsI ignore you studiouslyI protect my eyes from your blinding glareBy training my eyes to never go thereI do not care what you may seeInside your circle of...
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A childhood memory I am nearly ready to trust is from my pre-verbal years. Somewhere before 1964 when I finally started talking around the age of 10. Brothers and sisters were arguing about the...
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The world of women is still mysterious and full of petty, pointless cruelty to my personal senses. My world has been populated by mostly men for 58 years. In the 60s I wasn't allowed to know a...
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Every light, even the mighty Sun, will find an edge from which to cast a shadowThe man made bright of electric might is certainly not the exceptionIn the shadowy gift of man made light lives an...
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Fear burns relentlessly from the eaves of your houseLike unblinking demon eyesCasting deep shadows through the slats of your fence Like bars of a prison cellI wish I could be grateful for the...
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The mysterious tendril of the dream, "Trophy Conditioning" is still haunting me at seemingly unpredictable moments. I still do not know what it means, but I think it is popping up in the presence of...
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A month or three ago, I woke from a dream I couldn't remember with a BOLD CAP recollection of the phrase, "Trophy Conditioning." Normal for me. Sorta. My dreams and conscious worlds mix with...
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A residual aneurysm from my own prepubescent lessons of the English language was triggered countless times during the years I taught English as a Second Language to more recent immigrants. Whatever...
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The longest night of the Northern Hemisphere has arrived. As I type, the Earth is wobbling on its axis to reverse its tilt. Tomorrow we will gain approximately 28 seconds of sunlight while the...
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This FreeThat FreeThe Next Ex FreeFree means, "No Sir! You may NOT!"Let us make a New Law to get our point acrossSo we can all be freeTo agree with ME
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I have been short circuiting on the drug issue for a very long time. As a teenager in the 60s I came of age watching elders deal with addictions to prescription drugs which are now illegal. I...
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Traditionally, I begin to fray at the edges with the first Christmas displays. I consider it solid progress that I now recognize it as part of my PTSD and have developed some effective coping...
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When my husband and I married in 1980, my therapy was well under way. All the labels have changed since then, but my current recovery program was well established enough for my husband to have an...
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December trauma carries a different flavor than trauma which occurs in the other 11 months of the year. In the last few years I have felt like December is now starting in what used to be September....
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