theblackrose
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- My mom told me yesterday to stop talking or else she'll tape my mouth shut. I already don't talk that much... I can't get her words out of my head and it eats at me. She's never been there for me and she can't. She's neglected me my entire life, she...
- Well, I was talking with a friend yesterday and then my alters started poping out to talk. My friend thought my alters were demons.... And started trying to send them back to hell ( you can see how fucking awkward that could be, Ray just laughed at...
- Lately my anxiety has been through the roof! i can literally feel it pulsing through my body, ive been shaking all over for weeks. its been exhausting and its making me sick. i can feel myself being consumed by it...
- Long time no see. :) aha things have been pretty interesting lately. we started a new med (Genodon) and the past few days have been... interesting. im going through withdrawl and ive been hillusionating alot and having alot of flashbacks and...
- My therapist reported my cousin before i was ready for her to! im going crazy! :(
- I'm going to escape. I'm getting out of Hell again. I'm going to run away to a shelter a 1/2 mile from my house. They'll never find me. There's nothing left for me were I am. No people holding me back, no reasons to stay. So yeah. That's that!
- For the first time in months, even years. I've never felt so happy as I did sitting out in the middle of a rain storm. We sat there and thought about our future. We got alot done. It was amazing! I think we found a new coping skill. Sitting out in...
- It's pretty weird being single. Been going to alot of parties and meeting new girls and all that fun stuff. But instead of a new girl every new party I want a relationship, someone I can talk to and they will understand. Someone that will love me no...
- So we've been hittin up Alota partys n shit ( and getting us some ;P ) and its beena blast but Bailey keep bitchin about bein lonely n wantin a girl. ( so we got her a girl) but she found this girl she really like n shit. And she pretty wild ( and...
- Im tired of being alone and single, i want to get another girlfriend... but i cant trust or even really love after all the shit thats happened. Relationships always fall apart and i dont want to risk getting hurt, i dont think i could take anymore...
- We havent slept in a week at least. My littles have been coming out at night. Kevin calls for me and Brookie meows and Ruthi sings everynight. And when we wake up in the morning im exhausted. Dont know what to do! Im worried because my alter Ken has...
- I started my first period after the death of my baby girl... i feel so sick. Im also watching all my friends posting pictures of their newborn babies, healthy and alive and i just want to cry! my babies are gone and my body killed them both. i just...
- I can feel myself losing it, every last bit of feeling i had left is dissappearing. I cant stop throwing up, my throat hurts and theres so much pain... i have no energy left and im getting tired of fighting... All ive done all day is make people mad...
- I was talking with my new T today. We talked alot about the rapes.... about my cousin.... she wants to report him!! I told her that we cant or else he'll come back and kill me like he promised! She said that she"ll report him when im ready... im...
- Well, we got a new therapist. I say it went fairly well even though i was gone for most of it. I heared Ella come out and chew out mother. Alters were whispering left and right, curious. My new T is a trauma and DID expert, i guess. She triggered me...