theblackrose
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- I literally feel so broken and numb... I'm losing it. Everyone hates me and I stopped talking. Im getting rid of my voice because no one will listen. All I can do is write. My voice is gone, everything I used to live for is gone. I started smoking...
- I'm writing a book about my story. I'm going to expose my abusers and I'm going to show the world what evil people do. I'm going to expose every single abuser! All of them! I'm going to tell people the truth. Bring this to there attention. I'm going...
- When I was 8-9 years old my mom worked and my dad got a job so then he couldn't hurt me anymore. Both my parents ignored me and sent me to live with this olderlady after school. She ignored me and my sister. The lady had a grand daughter younger...
- When I was 8-9 years old my mom worked and my dad got a job so then he couldn't hurt me anymore. Both my parents ignored me and sent me to live with this olderlady after school. She ignored me and my sister. The lady had a grand daughter younger...
- I'm starting to get alters at an alarming rate, I'm already at 14 and quickly growing. I've already got 5 within the past 2 weeks. It seems like I'm also getting more male alters which makes me a bit uncomfortable. It seems like all my male alters...
- Today I came home from school because I was in so much pain I could barely stand. Couldn't even breath. I was throwing up and squeezing my stomach trying to make it stop. This isn't the first time this has happened, in fact it happens alot. I'm...
- Yesterday I went to a store my cousin used to work at. He got fired a long time ago but I was still waiting for his face to pop up. I started thinking about how a few years ago we came to this store and there he was. It had been 2 years since the...
- Whats this? What is it for? What do you talk about here? Why? How does it work? Is it helpful? How? What's DID? is it bad? Can it be cured? Am I stuck with people in my head? Why do I have long hair? What are these? Why do I look like a girl? How?...
- I started smoking in 9th grade. Now I'm in 10th grade and after nearly a year of no drugs and no smoking I started up again due to very stressful situations. I smoke when I get the chance, since it's illegal for me to buy my own. I'm addicted. All I...
- I've been thinking about my dead son alot lately even though his due date in February has past. I'm amazed I survived past it, barely. This year was a leap year and he was to be born on a leap year... I almost lost it this year and slit my wrist on...
- I am just so tired of people! Sick of them! I'm sick of my " family" and all there bullshit! I'm sick of people using me! I'm sick of getting hurt and I'm sick of people touching me!! I don't want to talk anymore because no one accept on this...
- Hi. Well... I was raped and molested repeatedly by my cousin with I was 6-7 years old. I was also attacked and raped by other boys from school. I've been pregnant once and lost my baby in miscarriage within the first few months.... Lifes been hard...
- After talking to her about the rapes and my cousin she simply stated. You should probably just tell all this to your therapist, that what she's for. I just turned off emotionally. Been throwing up for most the day and feeling very numb after...
- I walked past my uncle today at church and burst out crying. I ran out of there and my mom followed. I let out my feelings and she stands there, no emotion. She tells me evrythings fine, I'm ok, stop worrying about it. I started to yell at her that...
- God! Now there's 11 of us! This is crazy! Now I gotta babysit 10 other people and most of them cause trouble! Soo much talking. Stop talking all at once!! One at a time! Jesus! This is just great. Soon there's gonna be 10 more, maybe 100.... Oh hell...