Multiple Personalities Support Group

Dissociative identity disorder is a diagnosis described as the existence in an individual of two or more distinct identities or personalities, each with its own pattern of perceiving and interacting with the environment. At least two of these personalities are considered to routinely take control of the individual's behavior, and there is also some associated memory loss,...

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loum50
loum50
I have so many parts with different problems and characteristics that is sometimes confusing where to put things. I hope it is safe here. I've been feeling suicidal and have been self injuring and feeling terrible stress. I told my therapist that I haven't been feeling very safe the past 2 weeks. She asked me today if I wanted to be in-patient for a while. Although it is very attractive to feel safe for a while and not as stressed and to have someone else take care of me for a while, I'm afraid it would complicate my life even more and give me more stress in the long run. I said no, but I'm so tired of the constant struggle that I would like a break for a while.
john12as
john12as
I hope you will consider giving yourself permission to take a break, it sounds like the benefits could outweigh any costs.
Either way, I wish you peace and healing... Keep us posted on how you're doing.
loum50
loum50
Thanks, I have plans to keep myself safe tomorrow and Wednesday I go back to work, but that is the most stressful thing going on right now. I really do have to take it one day at a time.
starfish
starfish
The holidays are extra stressful for everyone without our problems, and even more so for people like us, and others with similar "bonus" problems. I've felt that way about in-patient care myself. For me, the thought of it is mortifying. I wouldn't like the feeling of being "caged up" and not being able to have the freedom to leave if I wanted to. (not a problem with voluntary commitment unless you get in there and they decide you need to stay) The truth is, it is most times relatively difficult to have to be involuntarily committed any more. Now that the health system in general is overcrowded, medical personel have both legal and practical reasons to be hesitant in involuntary commitment.
I also worry that even if I was in there for a little while, who would feed my cats and water my plants? Not to mention, my apartment is a mess and I'm working ever so slowly to get caught up on cleaning it. I KNOW the manager would have a tizzy fit if she saw it. She and I don't get along very well, and I'm sure she'd like nothing other than to have a good excuse to evict me.