not so good

I am really really trying to be a strong person. I cant seem to get the ex out of my system. I have to learn to be more patient. Just because I want something to happen doesn't mean it will happen right away. Patience my child! I need some kind of release. Maybe if I make a pinata of him I can beat it to death just to get the frustration out. I still feel a lot of the pain of it all. my daughter-in-law asked me what I wanted for Christmas. I told her I just want to be happy. To have a hassle free life. And no more of the hurt. Easy to ask for but hard to fulfill.