Why do I have to feel like this right now? I just finished wrapping some gifts. I enjoyed doing it . The only thing is all I could think of while I was doing this. Was cutting. I wanted to cut and still do. I need to see the blood. I need to punish myself. I know there is no good reason to think like this. That's the part that drives me nuts. Here I am at 5 AM not sleepy and wanting to hurt myself. This is one of the many reasons I HATE MYSELF !
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I don\'t cut but am self destructive..Are you in therapy? I believe we have a self harm group here. I hope you don\'t hurt yourself. Reach out and get help.
I care.
It can be harder at Christmas Guy, knowing we\'re all supposed to be joyful etc. If this is why you feel particularly bad at the moment it\'s one good reason \'not\' to hate yourself. I hope this helps. Take care.