gkg21
Status: I have overcome many obstacles in my life. Grief, I cannot overcome. It lurks in the shadows, waiting, waiting. It comes, as someone said,
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After a little over 8 mos. a funny side of Scott was brought to memory.(There have been others but this was tangible.) Adam found a ziplock bag with disposable razors in the back of the bathroom...
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I had a major meltdown last night before bed. I didn't even realize I was crying until tears started to puddle on the table. I had things to think about from my last EMDR therapy and I wrote...
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Today was blah. The temp was ok but it was so windy. Bringing in more bad weather. Chris and his girlfriend came for dinner tonight. I was glad to see him. (her, too) I talked to him quite...
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Sat. Night (early Sun.) Dinner was good. We ate too much. Just went to Golden Corral. Not fancy, but decent food and too much of it! We ran into 2 different sets of friends while we were...
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Saturday..Went to the cemetery today. I haven't been for a while. There were lots of small limbs and sticks down from the ice, so I picked those up and swept off Scott's grandma's headstone. ...
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Friday night....Thank Goodness for Friday! I have had a rough afternoon for some reason. Maybe because I am exhausted. I am sleeping in tomorrow. This afternoon I went to a grocery store near...
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I am so tired today! I am not getting a lot of sleep. This time the EMDR has just made me feel kind of blank. I have thought of, and talked of, Scott today but it was not emotionally draining...
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Went for my 2nd round of EMDR today. It was hard! I dreaded going but know I need to. It is so emotional! I told my counselor I can't believe I am paying every week to put myself through...
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This is a looong week and it is only Tuesday! I am tired. A fairly decent day at school except for the fueding teachers. Chris came by after school to see what sound equipment the school needs...
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"Old Blue Monday"...that is what my Grandma would write in her diary every Monday. I understand. I was a bit pensive today but made it through. Scott's income tax refund came Sat. It is a...
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It's Friday again! The Dr. appt. took a long time! I had the icky p-test, EKG, chest x-ray, and lab work. Now I have to get a mamogram and a colonoscopy along with seeing an ENT. As I was...
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Thanks again to all who have commented on my journal. I am thinking I will not be going to my sister's ceremony. Originally I was going to meet her and her partner in Joplin. Since we haven't...
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Tues. Night: Today was a bit better but my knee is very bruised. My student got the rest of the week out for tripping me. I can't hold it against him. He is autistic and has his moments. ...
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Monday night: Thanks again to all who comment on my journals! You have no idea how you help me pull myself back. Today was a CRAZY day! A student in ISS tripped me, on purpose, in the hall,...
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Sat. Night: Today was a total melt down day....off/on. I don't know what is the matter with me! I would be ok, then I would just burst into tears! I did get a lot done around the house...I...
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