gkg21
Status: I have overcome many obstacles in my life. Grief, I cannot overcome. It lurks in the shadows, waiting, waiting. It comes, as someone said,
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Friday night: Today wasn't too bad at work. It was a bit tense with the other para when I went in, but I broke the ice and asked how his evening was and how he was today. He seemed to be ok...
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Thurs. Night: I actually, almost, lost my temper today. The other para in our classroom is very nice but a real ditz & very, very different. He has never worked with kids before of any kind much...
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After a little over 8 mos. a funny side of Scott was brought to memory.(There have been others but this was tangible.) Adam found a ziplock bag with disposable razors in the back of the bathroom...
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I had a major meltdown last night before bed. I didn't even realize I was crying until tears started to puddle on the table. I had things to think about from my last EMDR therapy and I wrote...
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Today was blah. The temp was ok but it was so windy. Bringing in more bad weather. Chris and his girlfriend came for dinner tonight. I was glad to see him. (her, too) I talked to him quite...
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Sat. Night (early Sun.) Dinner was good. We ate too much. Just went to Golden Corral. Not fancy, but decent food and too much of it! We ran into 2 different sets of friends while we were...
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Saturday..Went to the cemetery today. I haven't been for a while. There were lots of small limbs and sticks down from the ice, so I picked those up and swept off Scott's grandma's headstone. ...
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Friday night....Thank Goodness for Friday! I have had a rough afternoon for some reason. Maybe because I am exhausted. I am sleeping in tomorrow. This afternoon I went to a grocery store near...
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I am so tired today! I am not getting a lot of sleep. This time the EMDR has just made me feel kind of blank. I have thought of, and talked of, Scott today but it was not emotionally draining...
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Went for my 2nd round of EMDR today. It was hard! I dreaded going but know I need to. It is so emotional! I told my counselor I can't believe I am paying every week to put myself through...
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Monday Night....Well, everything changes so quickly, doesn't it? I found out today, my mom, who has been battling colon cancer, has a spot on her lung that has gotten larger. She has an appt. on...
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Saturday....An uneventful day. Thank God! It was actually a bit like normal used to be. I cleaned a bit, did laundry, watched TV, made and rec'd a few calls, and now am on line. Of course, I...
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Friday...Well, I had to work today. It was still pretty slick this morning but this afternoon it wasn't too bad. Scott's friend Jeromy did not come over as planned earlier in the week but he did...
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Thursday...I made it through the hearing today and counseling yesterday. The hearing was a little tough but I feel like it went ok. Doesn't really matter how it turns out, it was unfinished...
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Tuesday...I had a rough day yesterday. Not enough sleep and too much on my mind. I did get my hair cut, though. She cut it a little shorter than I like but that's ok 'cause it will probably be...
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