BrooklynnMB
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- Today is my ex fiance's birthday. I feel awful. A year ago today we were together and I was throwing him a very nice party and I gave him a scrapbook of our lives together with a very romantic letter. 3 months later I broke up with him. It was a...
- I felt like I was making progress. One day last week I didn't even cry the entire day. I slept a lot that day though but I felt like I needed it. Now today is his birthday and I just feel awful. I used to make his day so nice. Last year at this time...
- I didn't cry today. Not that I had a good day or anything. To be honest I kinda wasted it. I didn't have school or work and I just kinda napped on and off, did an errand, turned in a couple homework assignments and play with my dog a little. A waste...
- My mom said something good sometimes comes out of horrible situations so it got me thinking that why shouldn't something good come from my experience. One good thing, I have empathy for break ups in a way I never did before. Another thing is that I...
- Ok so he has known for over 3 months that I feel like I made a mistake breaking up with him July and want him back. I know I hurt him by breaking up with him last July but what he is doing to me right now isn't very nice either. He has said since...
- I've been depressed over a breakup for a while now, and yes ok, I might even be slipping into some of my old patterns of my depression times. But today I ACTUALLY got out of the house and ran some errands that had needed to be done, and got a funny...
- Ok so I decided to stop sitting in my apartment feeling sorry for myself so I got out to run some errands. Well I only got one done and I broke down just in time to make it to the next parking lot. Then I decided to just take the dog to the park and...
- Days can be ok because I can usually try to keep myself busy. But actually the past few days I've slept mostly away. I really was tired though. Exhausted. At least I don't feel so tired anymore. This isn't typical depression for me, I've had that,...
- I've dealt with depression because it was a chemical imbalance for me. That was horrible. Now I'm dealing with the depression of losing my fiance. I think it's worse. I'm heartbroken. I broke up with him but it was a horrible mistake. He said he...
- Feeling awful tonight. I keep remembering when I was his girl and now I'm just a friend, and I'm lucky I'm even that since I broke his heart. It seems he wants to give me a second chance but he's making me work for it. Which is fine but the pain...
- I keep beating myself up for leaving him, for leaving the house we had made a home, for not marrying him, I miss him so much, I've cried everyday since the end of December over him. When does it ever get easier?
- I have been doing better the past few days, but today is not a good day. I know I'm in for a long night. I keep beating myself for leaving him, for leaving our house that I had made a home, I'm so angry at myself for leaving him I don't even know...
- Haven't been on in a while. Which is a good thing really. Starting to accept the fact that even if we don't end up together again life will and must go on. Ugh, I guess I've come to accept the things I cannot change. Well I'm still trying. Some days...
- I'm so angry at myself for leaving my fiance last July. I don't even want to live anymore
- I feel like I try so hard sometimes to push forward and I make progress and start to feel better. But then it's so easy to slide back again and end up back in bed with my tears.