dragonflydazd
Status: never give up on someone you can't go a day without thinking about...........
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FUCK IT I LOSE I CANT DEPEND ON ANYONE I THOUGHT I COULD. HTIS IS FUCKINGUBLLSHIT AND INSANITY. I GIVE UP FUCK ME.
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I MESSED UP.... SEEMS IT JUST DOESNT MATTER NOW.
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day 95 and actually right now could care less if i had a drink or not. suppose thats a good thing. working through some personal shit and starting to try to put things into perspective heres to...
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day 90 but to be perfectly honest i am thinking of having a beer. its thanksgiving here this weekend. same shit different day right. just a better excuse
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day 83i am learning to talk to my HP. this for me is a new and sometimes forced discipline. i am not a believer in god or organized religion but i have always said things happen for a reason and...
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sobrieity, patience, thinking, commitment, trying to find inner peace and happiness (whatever that is?), Higher Power. striving each day to move forward when some days it feels like i stand still...
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it still amazes me how people come and go in your life but there are certain ones who actually touch your world and help to change it. i have been that lucky lately. for as much shit as i am...
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day 65i suppose my life couldnt get any worse at this time. i am so desperately trying to find a HP and believe i have one. for 3 fucking years i feel i have been tested and continually pushed...
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day 64damn who knew. not ready to change my feeling face but i am starting to change some things in my life. trying hard.acceptance. argh
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i am in love with a paranoid schizophrenic. its bad. but today he told me to leave it is best for me because he will never be well. we argued. it was not good but i ended up tellhim him i was going...
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well today is 2 months, well 60 days. i should be happy and pleased but really it has been just another day. i dont feel like drinking in fact i had a virgin ceasar and wasnt even overly...
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well this is kinda random but i am pissed that i need to come post in my journal to change my mood now. hmmm. whats up with that then?day 59. tomorrow is 2 months. go me eh? ithink i will...
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i find myself after a reasonably good day hitting a wall. someone close to me is ill and i am not sure just how bad but has to go in the hospital tomorrow. we spoke but they sounded so horrible i...
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day 58 phew.i am kind of at a loss for words today. in an inbetween place like its not bad but its not good. indifferent maybe? realizing at times that my shit really isnt as bad as others and...
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goddamnit,some shit just happened some news and i cant do this. i just cant do this shit anymore.
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