day 58 phew.i am kind of at a loss for words today.  in an inbetween place like its not bad but its not good.  indifferent maybe?  realizing at times that my shit really isnt as bad as others and i should be thankful for that and face it head on in a positive way rather than the negative way i seem so used to seeing things.  i dont want to be sad or angry.  so why is it i cant see things in a positive way frm that perspective so i deal or handle it without anxiety or stress.  i am supposed to be a mature adult, i feel like a scared child.  whats up with that then eh?  i just feel so out of it.  i am sober and just want to be feeling great and happy.  i think i am the most impatient person i know.  here i am babbling about everything yet nothing.  i suppose that is healing as well.  heres to yet another day sober.  woohooalwaysdragonfly