sobrieity, patience, thinking, commitment, trying to find inner peace and happiness (whatever that is?), Higher Power.  striving each day to move forward when some days it feels like i stand still or even step backwards.  facing one challenge after another.  accepting my HP and knowing things happen for a reason and i am being helped yet questioning still.  accepance?  hmm.  grateful i am alive and sober but battling emotions and my own inner issues.  i have been told not to live in the past or the future but in the present moment by moment.  problem is my past keeps entering my present and as much as i am supposed to have the choice  how to accept or not accept that i am feeling rather powerless over that decision.  it just seems like the choice to be sober was an easy one.  sticking with it living it daily is a challenge but seems easier now.  nothing, to quote a friend, is written in stone so i wont take being sober lightly and think i have beat it.  it is an ongoing battle.  for now i am winning.  i wish i could say the same for other areas of my life.  day 69.  i want to find happiness as easily as i found sobriety.......