SophiasMom2010
Status: the hardest thing in life is being able to love after every heartbreak
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Well DS, I'm back again. This time however I think I am going to concentrate more on my weight loss groups than the stillbirth group. I love my angel mom sisters but I feel like I am in a different...
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No, you don't understand how it feels to stand over your daughter's grave. You don't understand what it's like to lay awake night after night,with tears soaking your pillow.You have no idea what...
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period showed up. I cried for about 30 minutes. I was so sure!! then... nothing. Stupid period was about 3 weeks late but still it reared its ugly head and here I am still child less. "yay".Why does...
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So, I'm waiting on either a period this month or a positive pregnancy test. It is driving me completely insane.I'm not even totally sure when I had my December period, I could have sworn it was mid...
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I'm just sitting up awake, it's 10PM here on the West coast. I'm just thinking of Sophia, today I found out for sure that I don't have ANY clotting disorders, and my hematologist gave me the clear...
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It is so sad to see new moms on here every month! It literally makes my heart ache to see young women who should be holding their precious new borns in their arms or moms who should be finishing...
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ggrrr. I want to run over my evil half sister with a truck. I'm being serious.long story short: my dad had an emergency gall bladder surgery on Thursday, we all rushed over there to be with him. She...
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I'm trying to get pregnant. I seriously might be the first woman in my family who ever actually planned a pregnancy. I'm not joking. same goes for my boyfriend.Ugh!! How do women do this? I'm so...
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I just cried myself to sleep last night. I couldn't hold it in anymore. She is gone. She's really, seriously dead and nothing I do will ever bring her back.It's been a year, a whole YEAR. It feels...
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Are you still breathing?'cause I just wanted to say I love you.I dream of your arms around me, your hugs and kisses.I dream of what your eyes may look like,an the life you would have had.If it...
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I went to go see Sophia's grave today. And we finally get to see what her headstone will look like. The funny thing was there were actual honest to God roosters running around the cemetery. They...
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It turns out I can still transfer to PSU!!I'M FINALLY GOING TO GET A NEW START SOMEWHERE! Maybe God finally decided to give me a break. But I still wish my girl was here.
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Just had breakfast in bed. Crazy Boyfriend is throwing up sesame street hand signs spelling weird things. I feel so much better since I got out all that crazy emotional stuff yesterday. We all need...
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I think I am honestly going crazy. I'm so depressed I can barely do the dishes. My house is a wreck and I just want to sleep and not think about it but all I can do is think about it. She should be...
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I flunked my oceanography class. That means one more term at a community college and I can't go to PSU like I planned to this fall. :(And I lost my financial aid for the second time this year. Why...
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