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- I was busy today chopped some wood, brought 4 loads up on the deck, went into town to deliver some needed death certificate copies to bank and insurance office. That was hard but didn't cry in front of anyone. YEA ME!Now it's night and dark. Tv...
- I wake up each moring about 4 am and that is my "thinking-reflecting" time.Actually the time I do most of my crying. Today it's 1 month without Ray. It's been the hardest month in my life as you all can relate. For the first 2 weeks all I thought...
- Ray always kept our woodburner going this time of year. Chopped wood, it actually was fun going out into our woods with him, find a dead tree and cut it up for firewood. Even though he was weaker, he would go and chop firewood..he would make the...
- I just wanted to say a BIG THANK YOU to everyone here for your support and kind words. I know in the real world, I couldn't speak so openly about my thoughts and feelings. This is an awful hard road we are on.I read posts about what some think are...
- Today after being home alone for days because of weather, went to meet friends. Had lunch and just sitting talking and all of a sudden I had the urge I had to go home. I was panicing.....I had to leave, had to get home...Came home for no reason, it...
- Living alone now my mind goes to strange or uncharted places, places I have never been before. Today looking at Ray's picture above the woodburner I started to think...do I love you more now that you aren't here?When Ray was with me we had a real...
- Some days I don't want to be so sad...I have gone to Hopeful Hearts to read happy posts but they must all be going on in their lives because they don't post much.So wanted to start a happier topic: What are you thankful for now in your lives?ME: 1)...
- I still don't want much to eat. But looking in my cabinets and frig much of what is there is what Ray liked to munch on or for meals. I made a boxed loaf of bread the other day, bored and cold/snowy outside. So that's what I am eating for breakfast....
- I was lying on the couch listening to a MeTv old western "The Rifleman" that my husband and I liked to watch in the afternoon. It was a re-run that we had watched together the last time it was on. I laid there looking at the large picture of him...
- I am finding comfort here on "W & W" feelings that I have I would have thought were unique to me and maybe I am being silly or foolish for having them. ESPECIALLY THE GUILT. I kept thinking if I had done more or diferently Ray would still be here....
- Now they come, 3 weeks after RAY passed I get new bills every day. We had insurance. When Ray was having tests sometimes we had to pay the whole bill, was told it was going toward the co-pay. Then each bill comes and I have a % to pay. So I am...
- My husband died on 1/28/15My husbands B-day 1/28/51any special meanings to dates/numbers?just wondering, sad if you ask me, any way you look at it.
- My husband Ray: He was a breath of fresh air to me. I value his mind, intelligence, and his passionate interest in history.He was very lucky to have a father that he spoke of often, who instilled qualities that today, many negelct.Yes, he had...
- Yesterday was 2 weeks without my husband. Since his passing each day I would wake about 4am, lay in bed think of Ray and cry. Then I'd get up say "good morning" to his picture and cry. Then I'd get on the computer to DS read posts and cry. I would...
- As in most marriages the wife takes care of certain things and the husband others. Well my husband loved to do finances, so he invested and took care of the house finances and our retirement accounts. Though he was sick the past 6 mo. we both felt...