A new start for the New Year

I downloaded a keylogger on my computer yesterday and it didn't take him untill last night when I gave my sons girlfriend a ride home for him to be trying to get ahold of the OW...Saying he misses her. I am so threw with this. Funny hold he held me telling me he loves me and of course we had good sex but 30 minutes before he was talking to her. How did I managae to fall in love with the biggest loser in the world. I am down 32 pounds and I guess I am on my way to loose lots more so I can find me a new man. My stomach is so sick just thinking about all this. I don't know this man. This man that I shared a bed with for 14 f~ing years. The as~hole can't even keep a job. What a winner. What does that say about me since I had taken him back twice. I am the worlds biggest idiot. But now its time to face that pain I have been avoiding because it can be unbearable. He has to go, I have to get threw it and move on. Why the hell did he even come back to me. He should have known that he wasn't sure. Why keep me hanging. Only for his benifit. Maybe he was just enjoying the fact that he had 2 woman at his becon call. Well now he has just one and I hope they are happy...........