Is it really Christmas Eve?

Well did pretty much all of my shopping yesterday. Me and the H where shopping for 4 hours. He has been going every place with me to I guess reassure me where he is and to try and spend more time together. Well we where at Walmart and the way my H is looking around every where as if looking for someone. Its was driving me crazy. I was dreading running into the OW cuz that would just really upset me. Plus I looked like crap and really didnt want to run into anyone. I guess when we where at the check guess who walks out of the bathroom. The OW. I guess the made eye contact and she lifted her eyebrows like huh...I missed the whole thing.He didn't tell me till we where almost home. Why it pissed me off so badly I am not sure. But the more I thought about it the more I got pissed. My H did nothing wrong but once again I felt the feeling of they had a connection behind my back...again. Last one to know everything even though nothing happened. Why couldn't I have at least seen her to give her the worst look in the world. Just to see how she looked. Maybe its better I didn't see her because she probably looked pretty and then I would have beat myself up  about how much better she looked than me. Maybe God is looking out for me in little ways that I just don't always see. But after we got home it was like my night was more affected as the night went on. The night ended well even though this little demon was unleashed in my mind. Today has been a up and down day since we tried to talk about it. I dont expect him to point her out to me... I was just mad that she had to be a part of my nice evening that I was spending with my H. Maybe it hurt her to see us together....I am wrong for hoping for this. It is not the christian thing to do. Just one of those thoughts that come to me. Today doesn't even seem close to being Christmas eve. Never had that feeling before during the holiday season. Kinda crappy. Me and H have not really talked since around noon. We had a argument that I don't even know what about...we just started yelling at each other. Of course we have his family's Christmas party tonight, so I hope things are better by then. Well lets all keep praying for better days full of peace and happiness.