mysticrose

I don't have that much to say right now, only to say what's been going on. two weeks ago I couldn't take anymore and took a nice dose of diazapam and washed them down with vodka.  I always thought...

It's been a while since I have written a journal entry.  I haven't been doing so well lately.  My husband is an alcoholic and life is complicated.  Finding a purpose to life is difficult.  I try...

I'm feeling vulnerable today, I had another nightmare last night.  I wish I could stop them.  I feel so many emotions in my nightmares and the next day I feel all anxious.  I don't know who to...

Wednesday 8pm.  I've had a pretty good couple of days, which is good, considering the mess last week ended up in.  I've struggle with my fear of people and social things.  This week has been...

I'm feeling a little better today as I had a fairly good nights sleep last night.  I'm puzzled now about things.  In my memories of the abuse I don't recall any feelings or emotions I had and when...

I had another nightmare last night.  I must say I've had a good run without them, atleaset a good few nights with nothing or other dreams.   Last night there it was, my nightmare waiting for me,...

well it's 2am and I can't sleep, been tossing and turning and thought to hell with it and got up and came on here.  I've so had enough of life right now.  It's all too hard, but there is no excuse...

Well this weekend was probably the worst I've had for a long time.  I've just had issues with everyone.  Gotta start wondering whether it's them or me.  Days like these I just wish I didn't...

I went to see the counsellor the other night.  She's the church counsellor and I told her what was going on with me and she suggested I see some one more on top of the issue like a psychologist. ...

I'm going to see the counsellor tonight, that is if I don't change my mind between now and then.  I'm feeling really sick about it.  I don't know how I'm going to go.  I have trouble admitting...

I promised myself that I would start to take the steps necessary to heal.  I need to come to terms with everything that happened to me as I was growing up.  I know it wont be easy.  I'm not even...