Wednesday 8pm. I've had a pretty good couple of days, which is good, considering the mess last week ended up in. I've struggle with my fear of people and social things. This week has been pretty bad in that respect but I don't know why. When I get like this I don't want to answer the front door if some one knocks on it and I don't if I can get away with it, or I don't answer the phone if some one rings, I let the answer machine get it. It makes it hard to talk about things when I get like this, which is why I haven't been back to the counsellor yet, she wanted to make an appointment in two weeks, which is tonight, but I'm just not able to go see her. Ironic isn't it, I want to talk her about my issues, but my issues prevent me from talking to her. Oh well, there's always next week.
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I can so relate to what you are saying. It is sometimes easier for me to reach out here than it is to answer the phone. I hope you can find some beauty and peace today.
I haven\'t been around this past week so I am not sure what mess you were in last week. But I know it can be hard to go see your therapist but maybe it would help to just push yourself to go. I know how it is not to want to answer the phone and door. Good luck to you.
I know how that is. I hate with a passion anything where i might have to socialize, which in the south, is a pretty bad thing, because everyone is always throwing some sort of get together. I know how it is to hold back with a counselor, I did that for wuite a while, until one day I wrote a letter explaining everything. That helped alot. Here is a hug for you!!!