I'm going to see the counsellor tonight, that is if I don't change my mind between now and then. I'm feeling really sick about it. I don't know how I'm going to go. I have trouble admitting what happened to myself witlot admitting it to some one else. I need to get it out there. I may not be able to finish my uni degree if I don't. Everytime something comes up about abuse in my uni courses I feel sick and get all panicy. Why wont it just go away?
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It won\'t go away. I wish the same thing for years and it nearly killed me. I had to decide to fight, to take back my life, my dreams, and go for everything I wanted just to say I could, that I was a fighter, and despite the incredible pain, and humiliation, I was going to suceed and thus, make myself better than anything he could ever hope to be.
Go to the counselor, just to give it a chance. It\'s hard, but you KNOW inside its what you need! Go, and heal, and succeed, just so you can say, \"I\'m better than you, and always will be you pathetic peice of shit!\" I enjoyed saying that in my head wheni got my diploma in highschool. I\'ll say it again when I get my College degree. Don\'t let him win. Go to counseling, to help yourself. Take your life back. Become who you always wanted to be!