I'm feeling a little better today as I had a fairly good nights sleep last night.  I'm puzzled now about things.  In my memories of the abuse I don't recall any feelings or emotions I had and when I think about what happened I feel nothing, but that's me all over these day's, I don't feel much at all.  When I dream of similar things I'm quite upset and I 'feel' the emotions of my dreams.  Not sure what to make of that.  I'd always thought that I wasn't very scared when the abuse was happening to me but if my dreams are any indication, then I was indeed scared. 

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deleted_user
deleted_user

I have the same thing happen to me! In my memories, it never seems like I was scared, but in my dreams I\'m absolutely terrified. I wonder if i\'m reacting now, in the dreams the way I should have then... quite the delayed reaction, don\'t you think?
deleted_user
deleted_user

wow, you have the same thing too, that\'s freaky.