I had another nightmare last night.  I must say I've had a good run without them, atleaset a good few nights with nothing or other dreams.   Last night there it was, my nightmare waiting for me, in my nightmare I'm tied up, blindfolded and gagged.  I got loose only to be caught again and tied up, blindfoled and gagged again.  In my dream I was crying and emotionally tired.  In my dream my captor was kissing me and I was thinking I can't take this, I can't take this, makes me wonder what I was thinking back then when I was going through it for real.  I'm amazed that 25yrs after my abuse with my cousin that I'm having these kind of nightmares.  They ruin the whole day for me because I feel uneasy during the day, just unsettled and not sure of things, like things aren't right if you know what I mean.  These dreams usually happen when I'm stressed and yesterday I was incredibly stressed.  My laptop (which I love) was damaged by water - accident but still, which now means my time on here is limited as I have to use the family computer which is shared with the kids.  Also my second eldest child was in trouble at school and the principal contacted me to discuss the situation.  He, my son, didn't do anything too bad, threw a hissy fit at the teacher because he had no one to play with during the break and then the principal got involved.  Not the best I know, but atleast he wasn't picking on another child.  He has been bullied so badly in the past at another school that he reacts to minor situations.  I hope things settle down for him soon, he's a sweet kid.