marissasmom

Its been a while since I have signed on. Just been doing everything I can to find a new normal. 16 months already since my heart was ripped out. I am missing my Marissa so much right now. I have had...

It is coming up on a year when I received that phone call that changed my life forever. I am forever broken. January 18th 2015 the phone rang, it was Marissa's friend Ciara telling me that Marissa...

It has been a while since I have logged on. I really do not have a reason why besides I am on autopilot and just going through the motions. It has been 9 months and 10 days since I left that hospital...

I am so sad. This is so very hard just waiting for Mothers day to be over with. My oldest daughter has to work all day tomorrow. I guess I will go visit my mom. I know this is terrible but I just...

Yesterday was the 3 month mark when I walked out of the hospital, the last time I saw my baby. The accident was on the 18th, I will always hate the 18 and the 23rd along with everyday in between. I...

I am so lost. Just do not know what to do with myself. Its like I am in this holding pattern just waiting for things to go back to normal, everything will be fine, she will come home. Then I have to...

Today has been a dare I say "good" day. I still woke up thinking about my baby and she was the first thing on my mind every moment of course but I thought of her smiles. My heart felt warmer.What is...

So today has been ok, I feel so much about feeling ok? It seems to soon to have ok days. It just makes me feel like it would hurt her feelings. Yesterday was another bad day and night, My husband I...

I feel like the only thing you all hear from me is sadness. I am just so lonely, so broken and I do not know what to do! I miss Marissa SO SO much. I really do not see how I will ever be able to...

Really? Is this just now hitting me? I have been having a SUPER tough past couple weeks and today I got up and thought well I might be ok today, then I am walking to the bathroom and just like that I...

I cannot breathe, I cannot focus, I cannot think of anything other than my baby, fear overwhelms me. This didnt really happen I keep saying but it did!I hurt so bad. My stomach is in knots. Time has...

I was actually having an okay day today and just now it hit me again! She is really gone!!My sweet baby. I miss her so badly. I am sitting here at work trying not to scream. I miss everything about...

 I use to enjoy Sundays, getting ready for the week, spending time on the couch watching movies, now I hate Sundays. 7 Sundays ago is the last time I saw my baby :((The weather was super nice this...

I am just so sad tonight. My heart hurts I have never wanted anything so badly than to have my baby back. My life is just so dark without her. I cannot see where I will ever see any light again. I am...

I am at work. Been keeping busy and once again all the sudden I realize it has been 43 days since I have seen my Marissa! I had to log in and write to all of you I do not want to break down here at...