Struggling
I am so sad. This is so very hard just waiting for Mothers day to be over with. My oldest daughter has to work all day tomorrow. I guess I will go visit my mom. I know this is terrible but I just dont want to. I have a very loving mother, we are very close I just am pissed off really. My heart hurts, I have a constant lump in my throat and a hole in my stomach. Im tired just so tired of this constant pain. I feel like I am drowning and I will never come out of this. My marriage is suffering, I dont even want to see other people. My mind knows Marissa would not want this for me, I just cannot control it. I just want to be alone. Alone in my sorrow of missing me baby. They do not understand what this is like. I was going though all of her artwork and things from when she was little. All of the Mothers Day cards she made me, oh how unbearable this pain is. It will be 16 weeks tomorrow since I have talked to my girl! How is this real!!
I pray you have all find peace on this mothers day.
XOXO
I pray you have all find peace on this mothers day.
XOXO
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Wishing you peace. I wish I could be there to give you a real hug. Be gentle with yourself and let the tears flow.
My thoughts will be with you and all the heartbroken moms tomorrow.
Love to you and your beautiful Marissa.
Tight hugs, Marlene
Love and tight hugs
Marlene
I too, am wishing peace for you. It is so hard to be gentle with yourself during this most intense time, but please do so. No one can understand except a mother who has had this loss as well. This is a horrendous, yet delicate time. Try to take care of you.
Sending hugs,
Leda
Extra hugs for you as these difficult days just seem to drag by. You are cared about & loved.
Wishing you and all of us peace. There are lots of hard days now and ahead, but I\'m glad you have family who love you. I hope you can take some happiness in seeing your mom tomorrow even though it is going to be such a difficult day. The silver lining is that you have both a mom and a loving relationship.
Hoping the day passes quickly and you can feel Marissa with you. Hugs, xoxox Kathy
Your pain is still so new, some days breathing is an effort. Let the day unfold and do what is right for you. No one really understands except another mom with our experience. It is an awful journey. I am six years in, I\'ve been struggling lately. But I have learned eventually it will pass and I will have gentler times. It is difficult riding it out. Sometimes I like to sit in quiet and stare at a favorite picture of Doug, look right into his eyes, feel his love, his presence. Hope you have a gentle day. Sue xo
Be so very patient with yourself and allow it to unfold as it does. These days are tender indeed and there is no right or wrong way. YOU get to decide what is best for you even if you are not even sure of what it may or may not look like.
Loving care,
XO Joanie
Do the best you can today. Do what YOU want NOT what others expect you to do. May you day be as gentle as possible....what really helped me get through tough days, I would constantly tell myself it is just another 24 hours to get through....Hugs, Ann