I am lost and bewildered. I go from strong and alright one moment, to crushed and broken the next, to enraged and furious in the moment after that. I ache for Molly and I hate everything that reminds me of her as much as I hate everything that doesn't. I miss her and miss her and it doesn't go away and it isn't getting dulled through the passing of time and I don't know how to manage it........ or even if I want to........ in a way that will let me move on. I am exhausted and diminished and small without her. I am alone and lonely and tired and empty and full of feelings I can't begin to process..........

I miss you, I miss you..... and I miss the me I was learning to be because you loved me.