I don't understand why I just come home after work and collapse.....
I want to know why, when I make a list of things I need to do.....
I don't.
I wish missing Molly didn't occupy so much of my life. But I don't want get over this..... over her.......
I don't want the place inside me that she lives to get smaller or better or anything else that isn't her.
But I don't know how to keep her alive,
to keep up with everything I'm losing track of
and falling behind in,
and still find a way to go on without her.
I want her here so I can figure out how I will ever be able to manage without her........
I miss you Sweetface...... and I hurt all over and all under and all around me for missing you.....
And I can't stop looking for you to come back.
So come back..... so I can go on.
I want to know why, when I make a list of things I need to do.....
I don't.
I wish missing Molly didn't occupy so much of my life. But I don't want get over this..... over her.......
I don't want the place inside me that she lives to get smaller or better or anything else that isn't her.
But I don't know how to keep her alive,
to keep up with everything I'm losing track of
and falling behind in,
and still find a way to go on without her.
I want her here so I can figure out how I will ever be able to manage without her........
I miss you Sweetface...... and I hurt all over and all under and all around me for missing you.....
And I can't stop looking for you to come back.
So come back..... so I can go on.
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I\'ve wondered if the reason I keep crying is because I\'m afraid to get better... afraid I\'ll forget... that\'s so impossible though... I really don\'t understand... I\'ve talked to Cara I know she\'s not gone... she\'s told me straight up not to dwell on the things that hurt... that it doesn\'t help her or me... I\'m trying... we all are... how can we make sure we keep them alive if we stop grieving???