i don't feel good at all today...well...that's partially a lie...physically i don't feel that bad...but i just don't feel like being alive...i can't seem to shake it...i don't know what to do did manage to sleep with only taking 20mg of the oxazepam last night and no benedryl...guess i was tired...glad because i hate taking all the meds...how ironic is that....i hate taking meds but i want to od...yeah my brain is screwed up i guess i should get something to eat and take my meds and actually get some laundry in...but i don't even feel like moving...i just want the world to swallow me whole...i just don't care...