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I'm not feeling so good today...mentally or physically.  And my laptop keyboard is annoying me to no end.  I don't know where to take it to have it fixed.  I don't trust just anyone with it.  I...

gotta back up the credit card goal...wowsers everything is on that these days.  :(   I attempted cleaning my keys...didn't work...I probably spent a good 40 min with q-tips and alcohol, just too...

Alright....as the day goes on I am feeling a little worse...but such is life.  OMG...these sticky keys are annoying.  My poor life line is nearly as stuck as I feel lately.  I must see about...

Well...oddly enough...and I'm not complaing...I'm not feeling the after-effects (or is it affects?) nearly so bad as I expected.  I feel very mildly nauseas and mildly headachy and a lot like going...

OMG I been drinking way way way too much tonight...i think I started at 8pm (around there) and it's almost 5:30am and I haven't really stopped....except for a little spilled water....and a little...

nearly 4am and i haven't slept yet...depression group was rough....really rough...i came home wanting to kill myself...well...those were the thoughts in my head...they're not so much there now.  It...

my online appointment....she never showed up... :( i'm sure something came up and she has a good reason...but that is what I don't like about online...you don't know until you find them online...

Feeling extremely edgy today.  Woke up very sedated from my oxazepam...usually I wake up really well from it.  I had to cancel one of todays appoitments...I just knew I couldn't get there.  Am...

I may have shared this before...but I think it's time to again...or..well...it's good to be reminded of some of these things sometimes  Stress Management A lecturer, when explaining stress...

i'm feeling pretty crummy at the moment...but i did make it to that appoitnment...and it was as expected.  We've stopped the Manerix...and I have to go med-free for a week...and next week will start...

a broken 5 hours of sleep...give or take.  Another hour and I need to drag myself to my appointment...somehow.  I need to get a grip...but no will left to bother trying.  Lord I need a miracle to...

it's after 4am and i haven't slept yet...i feel tired but not anymore so then i have been all day...i feel i could stay up another 12 hours if i had to...i don't want to...and i probably won't...but...

if i had the energy i'd give up *cries* 

i don't know how i feel really...i feel depressed but aggitated...i've only been able to leave my bed once today...that was to use the washroom and get a fresh glass of water...which i haven't even...

i'm fucken trapped...i can't fucken live and i can't fucken diei just want off this planet...i want off this fucken life i don't fucken care how just somehow....something needs to give and...