a broken 5 hours of sleep...give or take.  Another hour and I need to drag myself to my appointment...somehow.  I need to get a grip...but no will left to bother trying.  Lord I need a miracle to get through Christmas...or else I'm better of dead.  My MH nurse called...returning my call from FRIDAY...she said well maybe you shoulda made plans for the weekend.  I said I had things I could've done...I just don't have it in me to bother.  I really just don't.