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It's 7:30am and I haven't slept yet.  Too much sleep yesterday I guess...stupid pills.  Thinking I will soon have to have some breakfast and take the plaquenil.  I'd rather not be on meds but...

I'm so scared right now. I don't know if I can handle this.

I'm feeling miserable.  I shouldn't complain though since I deserve every bit of misery that comes my way right now.  Just feeling trapped, and kinda hopeless.  LIke I'll never be able to pull...

Awake again.  It's 10:20pm.  Been awake for awhile, just sort of not really coherant.  Mostly just been pigging out on the mountain of junk I bought yesterday.  Finished off a bunch of gummy...

Not feeling particularly good at the moment.  I took another od last night.  Nothing major, never went to hospital or anything.  But slept quite a bit.  Trying to force myself awake now.  It's...

Didn't really do much of anything...should be asleep right now, but ya know I never am.  It's a little after 3am so will have to try soon to sleep. I got out for a little bit earlier in the...

Somethings not right.  I have odd feeling in the left side of my head/eye....it's not quite a headache but it's uncomfortable.  I thought for awhile my eye was swollen but after taking a good look...

Well, after being tired all day I ended up eating chocolate....and go figure...it woke me up.  Hmmm...I should know better then to eat chocolate at night because it's 3am and I'm still awake.   I...

My BIL is out of surgery and in recovery now.  Everything went well during the surgery so that is good and a huge relief.  Now comes the hard part of recovery.  I imagine he's going to be feeling...

I don't have much time to write because I need to get ready for my appointment...but I wanted to say that my BIL is in surgery now.  Please keep him in your thoughts and prayers that all goes...

So I ended up sleeping all evening and am kind of awake now that it's midnight.  Go figure.  I took a loxapine though so hopefully I'll be tired enough to sleep again soon.  I've got bad urges...

I'm feeling alright today.  Just tired and lazy.  Didn't take any loxapine last night so didn't fall asleep until around 8am this morning and slept until about noon.  Not a lot of room there for...

I can't handle this BPD crap anymore...it's pissing me off.  Why do I have to deal with this stuff....why do I have to be the one in my family to be so screwed up.  I can't handle the ups and downs...

Just posted some more Peggy's Cove photo's...these ones are from Feb 24.  No matter what I do though they upload in the wrong order.  I wish there was a reorganizer or something. I'm wide awake...

Things went pretty good today while I was out with mom.  We went to the thrift store, I spent money.  Then went to a liquidation store...spent more money.  Then went to supper...spent more...