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so i just finally worked up the nerve to do a practice call with the crisis line...been trying to for a week or so now.  See I used to call them all the time and then things got better so I...

It's really snowing lots out there today.  I went for a walk in it.  Sadly alcohol was my motivator...but at least I did the walking.  I wanted to go to the liquor store before it closed because I...

I don't belong anywhere, I don't fit in... I went out to see my new great step-niece Hannah and all the rest of my family tonight.  For once I actually decided to put an effort into how I looked...

i don't think i'm gonna write much...because it's late and for once i'm actually tired... i am back in the city and been keeping busy and getting behind on emails...got back yesterday but after my...

They were in there at the hospital at 5:45am and at 11am the hospital sent him home again.  I'm not sure of the reason this time but this is really starting to make me mad.  He's now scheduled for...

I ate way too much...probably ate more today then i've eaten in the past week total...ugghhh...not such a great feeling.  I do admit I was undereating big time...but today I completely pigged.  ...

My BIL and sister were at the hospital early this morning (6:30am ish) and waiting for his surgery.  It ended up getting bumped a couple times and then at noon they decided to send him home and try...

Mmmm....today is Pancake Tuesday and the pancakes are being made as I write this.   I'm not feeling quite as bad as I was, but not quite as good either.  I do think that I will go on the treadmill...

the good news is I'm starting to feel a "little" bit sleepy... the bad news is I think my moods are shifting and I feel like I'm gonna crash...gonna go take my celexa and try to sleep...hopefully...

Another night and a bunch of happy energy.  I did 1 hour on the treadmil earlier to try and tire myself out...that backfired.  I have more energy...but mom was starting to freak because that was a...

I'm at my parents now....just waiting for supper...but anxious about it too.  My appetite has been really low lately (which I'm not complaining about), so I've been forcing myself to eat.  I'm...

Hmmm...today is chiro day and then out to my parents for a night or two or three.  Not sure if I want to be there or not.  One night will be fine I'm sure but we'll see from there. I realized I've...

So I finally decided to put a photo of me on here and it's not distorted.  It's just almost 20 years ago that all.  LOL. I just realized I've been missing my Celexa doses.  I completely...

haha, aside from feeling like throwing up i'm doing really good at the moment.  It's 5am but still too much energy to sleep.  Just taking a break from cleaing my room...I don't know where to put...

I'm a little overly emotional at the moment.  I just saw the pictures my brother-in-law (not the one having surgery, but the new grandfather) posted on facebook of little Hannah.  OMGoodness the...