Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Things went pretty good today while I was out with mom.  We went to the thrift store, I spent money.  Then went to a liquidation store...spent more money.  Then went to supper...spent more money.  This month I've probably spent $300 extra that I don't have.  So much for the budget.  *shrugs*  Doesn't really matter anyway...I don't particularly care at the moment.   Once I got home my anxiety started building again.  Right at this very second it's okay...but it changes so much.  One second I'm ready to down a bunch of pills, or cut, or sneak into the hard liquor that's out in our "bar".  Then the next second I can't even believe I was thinking it let alone within inches of doing it.  So much up and down and all around and backwards inside out.....I really don't know. My roommate left for another trip so that's cool.  I've got the place to myself again until March 3.  The sucky thing is it's another hard week.  My aunt has her second round of chemo on Thursday and my BIL is *supposed* to be having his heart surgery on Thursday as well.   Not much else to say....why bother.  Maybe I'll go to bed early.  I'm actually tired for once.