Ellocin

Realized something about myself and my "artistic" style tonight.  I realized...when I'm doing something I like unconvential, slightly chaotic, unperfect work.  If it's too neat, tidy, and...

Overall still doing pretty good despite a few sad things happening around me.  I just really feel peace about things right now and that God will work it all out and I don't feel afraid at all. ...

Ya know, I'm feeling much better then I was a few hours ago.  I think I really just needed a good cry...I'm still emotional with the wonky sleep and antibiotics.  But I did talk to my parents after...

I'm a little upset right now.  Focusing a little too much on finances I think right now and it's stressing me out.  I met yesterday with a financial advisor who was willing to meet with me for free...

I'm back at my apartment and sleep has overtaken me again.  I fell asleep around suppertime for a few hours (woke up at 8pm) and I'm about ready to go back to bed again already...it's not even...

I'm at my parents and the change of scenery has definitely helped.  I've mostly just been relaxing and helping out here and there.  My first day here was a complete write off...I was just so sleepy...

It's about 2am and I'm just trying to wind down to sleep.  I decided to come out to my parents for a night or two...not to get away from my sick roommate but because I'm struggling so much with my...

Night time (more specifically bed time) is becoming torture to me.  It's been a long time since I've been minding night time this much this often...and really I'm just going to have to learn to deal...

I don't know if it's the antibiotics, the wonky sleep, the ativan, and/or spiritual warfare but I'm feeling really bad tonight.  The last few hours I am having thoughts of killing myself (I'm not...

Wow, is today ever a lazy day.  I don't know if it's from the antibiotics but that's what I'm blaming it on.  Or maybe I'm just laying low because my roommate has the flu and I don't want to...

Had a rough night last night.  It was probably the worst I've had in a long time but got through it.  I'm not sure that the 3mg of Ativan is good for me...I'm almost wondering if it's making my...

Last night plan for sleep only semi worked...but if I can somehow manage to keep from napping today I should be on track better.  I was asleep by around 12:30-1am-ish...but was woken up at...

I think my sleep wonkiness has hit a new wonky level...and I think that's why my moods are so affected tonight. I fell asleep last night at a half normal time but was awake again before 3am....WIDE...

3 days into 2010 and so far so good.  Overall I'm pretty happy with how things are going.  I'm having trouble getting back on a semi-normal sleeping schedule and a little frustrated because of it...

I came across something I wrote under one of my goals at 43things.com on Sept 28, 2009.  I want to share it here because I feel it may be helpful to some of you. My goal there was to "be happy"...I...