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I had a good but busy few days and today I'm having a really hard time.  I think though that's in part to the fact I'm working on cutting back the meds at bedtime again and sleep is a bit wonky. ...

Feeling a little bummed and overwhelmed today but okay-ish.  I pretty much know that apartment I looked at isn't for me...that's okay though.  I was a little sad at first but feel better now.  Now...

Feeling kinda bummed today.  Plus I'm fighting a bug.  I have a sore throat and headache and just feel like curling up into a ball and sleeping forever.  Sleep at night isn't terrible...not great...

regular entry below: God Said NO!! I hope that you can get the effects on your computers! The words are great, but the movements of the faces add a lot....I asked God to take away my habit. God...

Doing okay.  The movie was good...a nice easy funny one and it was good to hang with my cousins. I got most of the laundry done but it made me super cranky...I hate bed sheets...I can't fold them...

I'm just checking in quickly from my parents house.  I'm here doing laundry but am going to see a movie this afternoon with some of my cousins.  We're just going to go see The Toothfairy...just...

Regular journal entry below the Inner Peace article, read it...trust me:  Inner PeaceIf you can start the day without caffeine,If you can get going without pep pills,If you can always be cheerful,...

Looks like DS was being glitchy with the comments added to my last entry.  It gave me a good giggle.  I did end up going to the ER and checked myself into the hospital for a short stay.  I'm am...

I'm thinking I'm gonna have to suck it up and go to the ER again.  I don't think I can keep myself safe at home any more.  I hate this...I don't want to be in this position.  But right now my...

just thought i'd post a little update....no i don't feel any better...but i did talk to the crisis line for a bit and decided for now gonna take my clonazepam and hopefully sleep soon.  I took...

I don't know right now if I'm going to be able to make it through the weekend safely.  I'm already catching myself doing things I know I shouldn't...things that could be potentially dangerous if I'm...

I know it's generally not advisable to take more then the prescribed amount of meds...but I was just so desperate for sleep and given the crap day I had I figured one extra clonazepam wouldn't hurt...

Just got back from the ER.  I ended up really cutting and needed stitches.  I'm really dissappointed in myself right now and just feel like crying and taking enough meds to guarantee that I sleep...

Feeling better today...definitely think getting off the Oxazepam was a good move.  My roommate is away for a bit so I slept in the living room last night on the futon...it's soooooo much more...

Am having quite a day.  The clonazepam helped a little bit with sleep...still had the initial insomnia but I eventually put on some music and I think I feel asleep before the cd was over...so I know...