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Haven't been up to much the last few days...sleeping during the day and awake at night.  Thankful that I can take sleep meds tonight since I have to get up for appointment with Rheumatology...

Wow, I'm super tired these days...but I think now it's side effects of the increased dose of medication.  It's a different tired then what I was experiencing before.   I saw my psychologist...

Today might be a little better then yesterday...in some ways.  It's another day were I've stayed put in the apartment though.  It has been raining insanely here today and it's actually a good thing...

I decided to call my psychiatrist today  to talk about increasing the meds at least temporarily.  She agreed that would be okay as long as I was okay with it.  So tomorrow I will start 50mg of...

It was another rough day but I made progress...though sleep has pretty much been thrown out the window at the moment.  It's 1am...I've been awake for all of 12 hours...if that. That said though, I...

I'm afraid that I'm slipping back into the depression and almost every area of my life is being affected.  The good news is that the thoughts to SI are only fleeting...they don't stick...but...

I'm not really sure what to write right now...I'm not even sure how I feel.  I don't feel happy, I don't feel okay...I feel sad....but in a different way...I don't know how to explain...not sad how...

I felt sort of okay most of the day despite barely sleeping and being awake almost every 30 minutes and then up at 7am because the person to fix our heat was suppose to come.  They didn't show up...

Tomorrow I plan on feeling better...lighter.  This heaviness in my chest has got to go...this depression is no longer welcome.  Tomorrow will be a better day.

I feel so heavy today so kind of having a low key day.  Hoping to work on my room a little bit after supper. Went to a movie yesterday, A Christmas Carol (in IMAX 3D) and it was good...would be...

Getting ready to head to bed as I am exhausted but wanted to stop in long enough to write an update. Yesterday I sent another email to my roommate apologizing for my behavior the last while and sent...

i don't know what to do...i can't seem to control my anger and it's getting totally directed at my roommate even though I'm not even there...i'm at my parents.  I don't even realize i'm angry until...

Feeling a little better today...mostly because I've had it to myself but have still gotten things accomplished.  I have spent a lot of time on the computer the last few days catching up on things I...

I know my parents love me and did the best they knew how in raising me...afterall they are human too...but today I'm feeling angry with them and resentful.  I know that's awful to say but it is how...

I'm at my parents right now and will be for a few days.  I was suppose to go to my cousins housewarming party today but I just couldn't bring myself to go.  I can't handle being around so much of...