It's 7:30am and I haven't slept yet.  Too much sleep yesterday I guess...stupid pills.  Thinking I will soon have to have some breakfast and take the plaquenil.  I'd rather not be on meds but those ones I will keep taking for now.  See the rhematologist this week anyway.  Feeling pretty calm right now.  Sort of dreamy but not....obviously since I'm still awake.  I'm feeling a fair bit better then I was earlier....but that seems to be the way I am lately.  Up, down, and all over the place.  It's the BPD.  I wish it was Monday so I could talk to my psychiatrist or counselor.  I can't deal with the rollercoaster rides.  At least right now things are okay but I never know when things will shift.  Hmmm...not really sure what to write....just wanted to note that things are better at the moment.