bowler08

just thought I'd check in with my journal, get some things off my mind.  I'm sure that valentine's day is hard for a lot of people that are single, because it sucks to be alone, I feel like it's...

Just an update on how I'm doing, I haven't hit in a few weeks, since the end of December, I haven't cut since August 22, and I've been following a healthier eating plan since the first of the year....

I've let my problems screw things up and my head is spinning right now.I decided to take on an assignment using a programming language that I didn't know, figuring that since I'm so smart it would be...

This morning I woke up and was feeling fine, nothing particular to bring my spirits down.  On my way from the parking lot to my first class, I was overcome with the realization that I feel...

Everything was going fine today, I was working and I love my job, and I was cutting cakes which is my favorite thing to do.  I've always had a thing for working with desserts, I feel like it's the...

I always find myself reading people's posts, but when I decide I have something to say, I type it up and realize that no one cares what I think.  Or I worry that the girls on here will think I'm...

I feel like something was stolen from me. SI was mine, it was that thing that no one knew about, only me. No one to tell me to stop, or to hate me for it, or tell me it's bad, or give me any kind of...

it seems like I start to do well, and I start to question myself on if I actually have any problems or if they're just in my head.  like, I'll be able to eat decent meals and exercise and I start to...

I haven't eaten for a day and a half. I didn't binge before it started, and I don't remember why it started.. I'm afraid to eat now because I know I'll end up binging and make the cycle continue....

not a lot happened today.. I'm not in a terrible mood, I was doing better before league.  I'm restricting again, because I saw my weight drop a little and I want to see more.  I know I shouldn't,...

this morning I woke up and was fairly happy.  I got a full night's rest, did my homework, cooked an egg and slice of turkey bacon, then I went off to class.  I don't know when it turned around....

well, I told myself I wouldn't hang out with my ex for a few weeks, but it's been a week and she called me this morning and in my half asleep daze, I agreed to her coming to my apartment and then us...

I need winter, I need layers. I want to cover myself in bruises and not have to worry about someone seeing.  5 weeks is good, but I'm not gunna be able to stop cold turkey for the rest of my life....

I seem to be hitting highs and lows a lot more than I have in the past.  Before I would have a good 6 month to a year stretch of depression, then I would be fine or fairly happy for a while, but for...

last night I got hit by a guy running a red light going about 50 mph.  my car flipped and slide through the intersection.  I don't think I was scared for my life, everyone was surprised I made it...