MarieAnn

Today is a day of contrast.  A begining and an end.I filled out the final paperwork for the last of the life insurance claims and I received a check in the mail for the first policy.  No financial...

I know that things are getting better as I don't need to release a ton of emotion in a journal on a daily basis.  I am trying to walk the talk instead of just going through the motions.  Or better...

Definitely time for an update on what has been happening.I am trying to be done with isolation and begin to reach out again.  I need to do it even if it is sometimes hard for me.  I finally was...

The last four days have been like walking through a bit of hell.  Too bad there isn't a smiley face that shows flames as I would use it.I had worked hard to get to the point where I could use a...

Feeling very introspective today.  I have been reading an author Anne Lamott who writes about her life and her recovery and how faith change everything.  I am enjoying her books and I am enjoying...

The day is finally over.  The kids are in bed and no one is screaming tonight.  Maybe it was just a matter of time or they sense how very tired and sad I am today. I made it through court and...

It's 7:05 pm and soon the kids will be going to bed and the screaming bed time routine will start.  Maybe if I think positively they will behave and just go to bed the way I need them to.  The last...

I have been somewhat productive today.  It has been eating at me that I haven't been able to be focused and get work done in the way that I am used to or need to.  Working for such a small company...

The last two days have been a struggle.  No patience with the kids tantrums and it is normal stuff but my energy level is low.  My Mom came and took them out yesterday for a few hours and I had...

Anger and ResentmentThese are two words that keep coming up again and again for me.  I am not always sure what to do with them.  I do know that when I have made choices in anger and resentment that...

It is Saturday morning and the kids are watching cartoons which they love to do.  The girls had lost the privilege of tv all week long due to the acting up that was going on.  It was a struggle...

I held it together today and that is my only goal for each day.  To keep my self from falling apart.  I held onto my patience with the kids which at the end of the day has been a hard thing for me...

 I went back to therapist today and I didn't want to go.  I haven't seen my therapsit since before he passed away.  We spent the entire last 13 months helping me deal with the abuse and the...

Your voice I won’t hearYour touch I won’t feelAnd that makes me sad  Your anger won’t touch meYour abuse won’t hurt meAnd that makes me feel relieved  The hurt is still thereThe pain...

This morning was hard but the day got a bit better.  My son got support from his therapist at school and the DMH social worker came this afternoon like they do every Thursday and that helped us...