th absurdity of bipolar

Just when i thought i was able to run with the horses and ride that beautiful wave, here i go getting depressed again.  The hope that i still have is that I believe this time my Pdoc. may be on the right track with the meds but maybe i need another boost of it. I was starting to feel better in a "different" more functional way this time and I was becoming hopeful again.What the fuck is wrong with me?well i know what it is and its the stinking disease of bipolar and I have had enough......quite disgusted right now with it all.